Don't Pick A Sponsor Just Because You Like Her.......Shoes.

I got fired.

By my sponsor.

So you may ask is this possible.  And the answer is yes!  You can also fire your sponsor, but i didn't get around to firing her first.  It's kind of like ending a relationship without the sex.  They know everything about you.  She even has my drunk a log.  She has in writing all of the self induced hell that I put myself through for the past three years.  I personally would rather have naked sex movies of me floating around on the internet but I guess that's a story for a different day.

All I know is that bitch is crazy.  I kind of liked it though in an endearing crazy hoarding aunt kind of way,

but then after awhile you can't show them off at the dinner table anymore and it sort of looses it's appeal.  Mostly I found it to be a headache.  I know some of it's my fault because we became "friends".  Apparently you are not supposed to do that with sponsors. 

She says I have to much drama.  And i say; "Say it isn't so!"  I've got my shocked look on.  You mean to tell me that someone in early recovery living in a recovery house with other recovering women might be a little drama filled.  Why that's just nuts.  Personally I think it's a spiritual journey into the inner sanctum of hell at times but mostly it's just OK.

I have trouble with trust to begin with.  You tell me the sky is blue I have to look.  That's just the way that it is and unless some miracle happens i suppose i am always going to be that way.  I try to trust people and I just get my feelings hurt and I DO NOT LIKE THAT.  It's about the same feelings that I have about dentists  I don't like them.  I loathe it and I'm not going to go there unless I have to.  Which is about every six months and that is just to much.

So now I'm on another journey to find someone who has more sobriety than me and has worked the steps to tell me 'suggestively' how to run my life.  What meetings I go to.  Who I see.  Where I go.  Who I sleep with.  Etc.  That sounds fun doesn't it.  I'm feeling happy, joyous and free about the whole thing.

And another note:  Do NOT make your homegroup the same one as your sponsor.  That's like going to work with your boyfriend.  When you break up you're still going to have to look at that fucker.