Work in Progress.

     I am a recovering raging alcoholic.  I began this journey into the world of sobriety almost 5 months ago.  That's after losing my sanity, my life, and everything that goes with being a "productive" member of society.  Before this began I spent time in 3 different rehabs, countless hospitals, and was only steps away an extended stay at a jail or prison. 

This is my life.

I live in a recovery house.  If you told me that I would be living with 5 different women with 95 different personalities 5 months ago i would have told you to go fuck yourself.  Really.  What has transpired in these last months though is something amazing.....I am learning that I can play well with others.  Sometimes.

I am a stubborn, opinionated, independent, dependent, woman who thinks the world and everything in it should revolve around me, and then me some more.  But what woman doesn't right??  The difference for me is is that I get to take a close look at my faults everyday doing something that is called step work.  What I like to call it is a huge pain in the ass.  Who in there right mind would like to look at your faults on a daily basis, analyze them, and THEN make a consious effort to do the right thing?  Personally, months ago, and today i would rather do virtually anything else.  But, i remind myself that my life was one freaking HOT MESS and I have to take my personal inventory on a daily basis.  Wat I don't like is that I don't have control over what happens around me, but what I do have control over is how I handle the situations.

Did I just say that?  I am full of contridictions.  Is this right?  Is this wrong?  Am I doing the right thing?  Am i sensitive enough?  Am i placing prnicipals before personalities?

AM I A BITCH?????                                  probably.

So i'm going to try this blog thing out and see how it works for me.  First of all I want to apoligize to anyone up front that I am going to make angry or offend,  but i promise to not use your real names.  I have been told many times that I should right a book, and this is just about as close as I am going to come.

My life prior to being sober, would have probably been more interesting but that would require me to remember it - which i don't - mostly.